I am actually adjusting to life aboard this vessel. The first few weeks have taught me so much about myself, my family and God. Transition has a way of exposing our weaknesses and reminding us of God’s strength. One of my weaknesses is, I often have unrealistic expectations. I create an image in my mind of how things should be, I cling to those ideals and struggle with disappointment when circumstances fall short. That made the first several weeks on this boat especially difficult.
At first, I expected to complete the long list of renovations right away so everything would be perfect. Unfortunately, we are limited by our resources and unable to finish all the items on that list. At first I behaved like Verruca Salt from Willy Wonka and even heard myself repeating her famous words, “I want it now.” I was quickly humbled one morning while I prayed with a woman for her daughter who was addicted to drugs and living on the streets of Phoenix. I was heartbroken for this young lady, and reminded of how God saved me, before that became my story. That long list no longer seemed important.
I also expected to get back into a routine. The last ninety days have been so chaotic I couldn’t even think about a routine, let alone implement one. Bedtimes and meal plans went right out the window. We did our best to juggle everything, but inevitably areas of our life suffered. We are grateful for those that extended grace, offered help and prayed for us along the way. We have yet to establish a routine due to fall break, but I am grateful that I’ve had these days to spend with the kids at our new home. Playing in the water, taking evening boat rides, kayaking, bike rides around the marina, and dinner with friends do not need to be scheduled to be a blessing.
I am grateful God is patient with me as I readjust my perspective. Though many of my expectations were not met, there was one thing I didn’t anticipate that has surpassed all my expectations. God’s presence. I am surrounded by his creation day and night. The mountains change colors throughout the day, the lake is the most vibrant shade of blue first thing in the morning and the stars shine so bright. I can breathe out here and I am reminded that God’s plans are greater than mine and he can do far more than I could ever ask or imagine!
“Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us.”
I want to hear from you! How has God surpassed your expectations?